Viola Log: Mold & Ribs
Mar. 22nd, 2008 | 08:36 pm
mood:
sad
music: set fire to the third bar - snow patrol
I had already made a rather unorthodox set, which was very unprettyful and icky and so on and so forth. So we opted into making new ones.
I’ll post stuff with neck, fingerboard etc. later, since right now I’m feeling the mighty powerful urge to go for a run in a strange city and getting thoroughly lost. Ooh, how emo of me.
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10 Qs and a to-do list
Feb. 17th, 2008 | 09:21 pm
mood:
aggravated
1. Ethics of suicide. Ten seconds, go.
2. At what point does always blaming yourself for everything become merely the inability to accept that some things - some people - are truly out of your control?
3a. When I stand at the edge I'm honestly no longer looking backwards; does this make me a true atheist, or just a fool?
b. On the way there, why would I allow myself to make so many promises, why do I reach out at all?
c. Does b. mean that I don't actually want to?
d. Does c. mean I'm every bit as awful as I think I am?
4. How much of memory should be allowed to be a perceptual lie?
5a. How can I socially treat an individual as a product of their choices?, yet
b. yet politically as the product of their environment?, and
c. emotionally as a product of their own head?
d. Seeing that a-c brings me to a ridiculous impasse, how do I force one coherent theory for dealing with people out of all that?
6. If I truly hate no one, do I truly love anyone?
7a. How much of me is mental illness, how much of me is "personality"?
b. How much of either should I be trying to fix?
8a. How can negative capability be morally... correct?
b. How can it be morally correct to desire that state?
c. How can it be morally correct to not desire that state?
9a. Why can't I accept that there are infinitely high energy states and just... move on?
b. Why do I have a ridiculously elaborate theory about how the universe is hyperbolic on short scales,
c. thus allowing conservation of energy to work for black holes given a.?
d. Why is scheming for new ways of overturning well established cosmological concepts my absolute favorite thing to do when I'm bored?
10. Why can't I accept the idea of immortal souls?
11a. Why can't I accept the idea of a beginning? (Big Bang, "moment of death", etc.)
b. Why must I believe that the universe/laws always existed?
12. Why can't I accept the idea of infinitely small points strung together to form a continuum of... anything?
13. Why is this longer than my established ten seconds, really?
Went a bit over. And I think if I was in a more rational mood I'd have more cosmology up there, since those are more generally my concern, but it's hard enough writing in complete sentences at the moment. And I'm looking at those now and it's like LOL philosophy, right. But whatever.
Things to do before I let myself sleep tonight:
1. Read 100pgs of art history text, through early Japanese.
2a. Write coat!fic for Whilily's 3-meme.
b. Find myself a new coat downstairs.
c. Spend no more than 15min angsting over current location of old coat.
3. Dump photos so I can stop fixating on all the ones of a particular.
4a. Write calc essay.
b. Download LaTeX, so next week I can just use that for my essay of dealing with the idiocy of Word's "insert mathematical symbol" function.
5. Hook up my sound system again so I don't have to deal with the annoyingly tinnyness of Iris (iPod), which does not let me crank the bass way up, and subsequently makes most metal absolutely unbearable for me to listen to, which is sad because I feel like listening to loud anti-musical noise at the moment.
Hehe. Right.
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Symmetry
Feb. 7th, 2008 | 10:10 am
mood:
apathetic
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Viola Log: Carving Back
Feb. 4th, 2008 | 07:46 pm
mood:
busy
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hair pins
Jan. 19th, 2008 | 09:38 pm
mood:
sad
music: through glass - stone sour
She places in hair pins to keep it all tidy, arranging it into aesthetic forms, those pleasing to the eyes of others. They always fall out after a few laughs, but she does it anyway. What’s the awkwardness of falling pins to those few moments when you are as beautiful as the rest of them?
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wish I knew
'hair pins',
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Viola Log: Prepping Back Piece
Jan. 18th, 2008 | 09:54 pm
mood:
bored
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Viola Log: Convex Side, and Teh Crack of Doom
Jan. 18th, 2008 | 06:00 pm
mood:
tired
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'a new start'
Jan. 8th, 2008 | 08:52 pm
mood:
melancholy
music: hurt - nine inch nails
She thinks of times beneath a tree, things drawn in the leaves: the peace of forests in the ruins of
The high rich ache behind her eyes, the trip of her fingers when she tries to speak, the smooth delete as she changes her words to keep herself quiet. She fails, as always.
Consideration. She’s barefoot but she likes the feel of concrete aggressing her soles, wet to the ankle and getting deeper.
Programmed. People left at midthought. Selfish for it, she doesn’t want to care. Her breathing is the sigh of a plane falling into the sea.
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Viola: Jigs, Cutting Front & Sanding Concave Side
Jan. 3rd, 2008 | 08:03 am
music: flying dutchman - tori amos
I don't even know the dates for when I did all this work - I don't think they're going to kill me for not having them, but that stuff's all imbedded in the pictures if people are all that interested in particulars.
I feel really stupid for having done so little during the fall. I mean... yeah, I was busy, and there was hospital whatnot and family whatnot and friend whatnot but... well, that stuff's still going to be there this winter, and I still have a lot of work to do. :P So I'm really going to have to pick it up.
Without further ado:
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!!!
Dec. 17th, 2007 | 05:31 pm
AND I'VE GOT A FULL SCHOLARSHIP1
*dies*
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This Is For The Muffins
Dec. 5th, 2007 | 06:58 pm
.
This is for the muffins
that I ate in class
for since I had no puffins
I prob'ly shall not pass
because when there is a muffin
I really cannot think
and so I need a puffin
to eat them all (with drink.)
And here I sit with muffins
that I eat with glee
though I need a puffin
if I shall be free
for with these yummy muffins
my mind will surely go
but where are all the puffins?
(I think my stomach knows.)
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Isn't it bizarre how the best you feel all day is during a math class? and that it involves airplane personifications of your classmates and a radioactive-looking bottle of Jones Soda and a lime green notebook and banana nut muffins? My time of day, I suppose.
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Type 1a Supernovae - Essay
Dec. 3rd, 2007 | 09:20 pm
mood:
rushed
music: symphonie fantastique - berlioz
A disclaimer before anyone gets into it: due to the complete idiocy of my instructor, I have been banned from using the verb "to be" in any form for any reason - including quotations, idioms, helping verbs, etc. (Amongst other words also, but none are quite so annoying.) Each word on his "banned word list" ducts me one point, no exceptions. Considering I don't want to be failed on account of not playing his ridiculous little game that supposedly prepares us for college essay writing, I had to write it like this. Sorry. I have to get at least a C on the paper to even graduate, and it's like half my grade for this particular class, so... :P
I haven't done too much editing on it. I still have to go through still and add in all my citations (I typed this mostly from memory :P) A lot of the phrasings are pretty convoluted, forced by his "guide to better writing", and I don't know if it's even possible to fix some of them. Also, I know this is pretty technical stuff (he might fail me for doing a topic of relative complexity compared to, oh, the history of baton twirling, knowing him *kicks*) so pointing out any places where I could try and be clearer and stuff would be really helpful also. (I cut about 500 words of the more technical yabbering already. :P) I don't really expect anyone to be able to correct any of this, but if anyone *coughs* FH! *coughs* has any suggestions as to things I might have omitted or should mention... that'd be sweet too.
I'd love you forever if you could add suggestions in any way. Seriously. Like... I'd-bake-you-cookies-and-write-you-bardi
Version 2.0, edited one early Thursday morn. Wouldn't mind more concrit, but this is probably what I'll turn in. I'll run around and thank peeps later, what with the cookies and bardic odes and all.
Without further ado:
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'auction' drabble
Dec. 2nd, 2007 | 02:15 pm
mood:
cynical
music: juliet - stevie nicks
'auction',
.
The heart, auctioned to the highest bidder—
—some offer flowers that freeze on a day of snow.
—some offer the slickness of a leather couch in the dark.
—some offer chocolates too sweet for the embittered tongue.
—some offer conversation dulled by their idealistic day.
—and some, some offer the hope of happiness to come.
The highest bid is always hope, but what is it but that gold that turns to lead once held in the hand, presented with the lazy whisper of perhaps and taken away with an unapologetic smile?—yet the heart is always exchanged with joyful tears…
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?!
Nov. 23rd, 2007 | 02:02 pm
mood:
awake
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Cobblestones & Mountain Dew
Oct. 30th, 2007 | 02:04 pm
where: brit lit ii classroom
mood:
blah
music: here in my head - tori amos
...quite a contrast. Hard to believe I wrote these within two hours of eachother. :P
Both look like I had ingested something suspicious before writing though, no?
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NaNoWriMo 07
Oct. 24th, 2007 | 03:53 pm
mood:
busy
music: poet and the pendulum - nightwish
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The Child
Oct. 13th, 2007 | 02:57 pm
mood:
aggravated
music: luna - the weasel king (?!)
originally
